Im Miss American Dream sinse I was 17
Dont matter if I step on the scene, or sneak away to the Philippines
They still gunna put pictures of my derriere in the magazines
You want a peice of me?
Im Miss bad media, karma
Another day, another drama
Guess I cant see the harm in workin and being a mama
And with a kid on my arm, Im still an exceptional earner
You want a peice of me?
*Chorus*
Im Misses lifestyles of the rich and famous (you want a peice of me?)
Im Misses "Oh my God that Britneys shameless" (you want a peice of me?)
Im Misses "Extra! Extra! This just in!" (you want a peice of me?)
Im Misses "She's too big, now she's too thin" (you want a peice of me?)
Im Misses you want a peice of me?
Tryin and pissin me off
Well get in line with the papparazzi
Whos flippin me off
Hoping I'll resort to some havoc
End up settling in court
Now are you sure you want a peice of me?
(You want a peice of me)
Im Misses most-likely to get on the TV for slipping on the streets
When getting the grocceries, no for real,
Are you kidding me?
No wonder theres panic in the industry
I mean please, do you want a peice of me? (chorus)
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
The Postal Service - Against All Odds
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
Your the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cuz we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
*Chorus*
Your the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
Theres just an empty space
Theres nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And thats what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
Theres so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why (chorus)
But to wait for you
Is all I can do
And thats what I've got to face
Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And thats a chance I've got to face
Take a look at me now
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
Your the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cuz we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
*Chorus*
Your the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
Theres just an empty space
Theres nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And thats what I've got to face
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
Theres so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why (chorus)
But to wait for you
Is all I can do
And thats what I've got to face
Take a look at me now
I'll just be standing here
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And thats a chance I've got to face
Take a look at me now
The Material - No One Has To Know
Dont call if off
Dont say its over now
Cuz I call the shots
And when I say its off, its off, off
And dont call if off
And dont say what you think you have to say to me
Whats done is done
And I think we both agree that we've run this into the ground
And I think its time we say goodnight
I think its time we say goodbye
*Chorus*
Does she know just how to whisper in your ear the way I do?
And does she catch your eyes from a distance sitting in a crowded room?
How many times must I sing my soul to you, (my soul to you)
Before you realize the trials you put me through?
But no one has to know
Would you grant me this last request?
I just want to feel like I've had something to say in this relationship
Its been so rough
Trying to see eye to eye
And its been so tough
But at least I've tried
And I've had enough
So let me scream it out with my last breath
I think its time (chorus)
No
No one
Too many dreams have come to life
Just to wither and die
Keep it a secret
Save your pride
I hope she eats you alive
Because your faithless words and blastphemy wont get you anywhere with me
Just keep it a secret
Save your pride
I hope she eats you alive
How many times must I sing my soul to you,
Before you realize the trials you put me through?
But no one has to know
No one
One more time no (No one has to know)
Dont say its over now
Cuz I call the shots
And when I say its off, its off, off
And dont call if off
And dont say what you think you have to say to me
Whats done is done
And I think we both agree that we've run this into the ground
And I think its time we say goodnight
I think its time we say goodbye
*Chorus*
Does she know just how to whisper in your ear the way I do?
And does she catch your eyes from a distance sitting in a crowded room?
How many times must I sing my soul to you, (my soul to you)
Before you realize the trials you put me through?
But no one has to know
Would you grant me this last request?
I just want to feel like I've had something to say in this relationship
Its been so rough
Trying to see eye to eye
And its been so tough
But at least I've tried
And I've had enough
So let me scream it out with my last breath
I think its time (chorus)
No
No one
Too many dreams have come to life
Just to wither and die
Keep it a secret
Save your pride
I hope she eats you alive
Because your faithless words and blastphemy wont get you anywhere with me
Just keep it a secret
Save your pride
I hope she eats you alive
How many times must I sing my soul to you,
Before you realize the trials you put me through?
But no one has to know
No one
One more time no (No one has to know)
Monday, November 5, 2007
Natasha Bedingfield- Soulmate
Incompatible
It dont matter though
Cuz someones bound to hear my cries
Speak out if you do
Your not easy to find
Is it possible,
Mr. Loveable,
Is already in my life?
Right infront of me
Or maybe your in disguise
*Chorus*
Who doesnt long for
Someone to hold
Who knows how to love you
Without being told
Somebody tell me
Why Im on my own
If theres a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again
Circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
Theres enough for everyone
But Im still waiting in line (chorus)
Most relationships seem
So transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one (chorus)
It dont matter though
Cuz someones bound to hear my cries
Speak out if you do
Your not easy to find
Is it possible,
Mr. Loveable,
Is already in my life?
Right infront of me
Or maybe your in disguise
*Chorus*
Who doesnt long for
Someone to hold
Who knows how to love you
Without being told
Somebody tell me
Why Im on my own
If theres a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again
Circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
Theres enough for everyone
But Im still waiting in line (chorus)
Most relationships seem
So transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one (chorus)
Monday, October 15, 2007
Lee And Lies
Sitting all alone by the bed on the floor
Your asleep and Im up quietly
Can things ever be like before?
This cold burns inside of me
Words and actions begging to be set free
Not the truth, only lies they believe
So I sit here to think about everything
Your hiding things from me
Today whats real
Tomorrow you conceal
Why cant anyone understand that I hurt too?
No its not just you
Call me dramatic, call me a liar, call me a backstabber
But your the deneyer
Of everything thats undercover
So all I can do is suspect and wonder
In my heart,
"Best Friends" come and go
Loneliness, thick skin, understanding, and reality grow
I love you and I have to all the other ones
Turn my head and smile big when they come
Yet I care for them all
I promise I do
Honesty got in the way
No they couldnt tell the truth
But the question is,
Can I seperate them from you?
Your asleep and Im up quietly
Can things ever be like before?
This cold burns inside of me
Words and actions begging to be set free
Not the truth, only lies they believe
So I sit here to think about everything
Your hiding things from me
Today whats real
Tomorrow you conceal
Why cant anyone understand that I hurt too?
No its not just you
Call me dramatic, call me a liar, call me a backstabber
But your the deneyer
Of everything thats undercover
So all I can do is suspect and wonder
In my heart,
"Best Friends" come and go
Loneliness, thick skin, understanding, and reality grow
I love you and I have to all the other ones
Turn my head and smile big when they come
Yet I care for them all
I promise I do
Honesty got in the way
No they couldnt tell the truth
But the question is,
Can I seperate them from you?
Tearful Little Girl
"Mandys Missing!"
Through the phone line and the tears I listen
You left to go pursue that inclination
Guess your shit with temptation
They cry as you bring their worst fears to life
I sit and deny
Your back and you've got a story
But you cant touch that
Because he didn't touch you
Without you wanting him to
You knew this tale would give him all the glory
But sweetie, the peices dont fit,
They're jumbled and I know it
How did this detective detect it?
Little girl, you lead me to it
You cant say this today and that tomorrow
First "No I dont remember"
Then "I had to surrender"
The deeper you go the more blood you ooze
You cant play this kind of game
Your only gunna loose
Its not right cuz this pain is real
You've been through hurt, but this you couldnt feel
Lies are so dominante
You did it because your afraid
Attention you seek
But its wrong to want it in this way
Through the phone line and the tears I listen
You left to go pursue that inclination
Guess your shit with temptation
They cry as you bring their worst fears to life
I sit and deny
Your back and you've got a story
But you cant touch that
Because he didn't touch you
Without you wanting him to
You knew this tale would give him all the glory
But sweetie, the peices dont fit,
They're jumbled and I know it
How did this detective detect it?
Little girl, you lead me to it
You cant say this today and that tomorrow
First "No I dont remember"
Then "I had to surrender"
The deeper you go the more blood you ooze
You cant play this kind of game
Your only gunna loose
Its not right cuz this pain is real
You've been through hurt, but this you couldnt feel
Lies are so dominante
You did it because your afraid
Attention you seek
But its wrong to want it in this way
Friday, September 21, 2007
You Were Never My Boyfriend
You consume my mind
Every day and night
I didn't fall in love with you,
I was something you discontinued
Whatever we had, it was empty
To be put simply
So why do I hurt so easily?
You never had a loving way of treating me
A romantic fairy tale I never believed
I knew we could never be
We had no "chemistry"
But what I cant seem to understand,
Is something I never, ever have
How were you able to just leave it?
No closure
No reason
Im left wondering
Looking for any kind of comforting
And your left fine
You schoolmates,
Im sure theyre divine
They filled my spot
They passed the test
Pretty eyes,
And what you get off to after midnight
I guess my feelings were just added stress
But haven't you heard?
Im a hot mess
I guess I failed cuz I couldn't touch you
And even though you fantasized about it,
I never would've fucked you
We were a lie,
Thats the truth
Now that its on paper,
Im over you
Every day and night
I didn't fall in love with you,
I was something you discontinued
Whatever we had, it was empty
To be put simply
So why do I hurt so easily?
You never had a loving way of treating me
A romantic fairy tale I never believed
I knew we could never be
We had no "chemistry"
But what I cant seem to understand,
Is something I never, ever have
How were you able to just leave it?
No closure
No reason
Im left wondering
Looking for any kind of comforting
And your left fine
You schoolmates,
Im sure theyre divine
They filled my spot
They passed the test
Pretty eyes,
And what you get off to after midnight
I guess my feelings were just added stress
But haven't you heard?
Im a hot mess
I guess I failed cuz I couldn't touch you
And even though you fantasized about it,
I never would've fucked you
We were a lie,
Thats the truth
Now that its on paper,
Im over you
Friday, September 14, 2007
A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
Your finger tips accross my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me spanish lullabys
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
*Chorus*
Well I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
Im trying not to think about you
Cant you just let me be
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images
No (chorus)
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So your gone and Im haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy,
To walk right in and out of my life? (chorus)
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me spanish lullabys
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
*Chorus*
Well I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
Im trying not to think about you
Cant you just let me be
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images
No (chorus)
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So your gone and Im haunted
And I'll bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy,
To walk right in and out of my life? (chorus)
Flyleaf - Im So Sick
I will break
Into your thoughts
With whats written
On my heart
*Chorus*
Im so sick
Infected with
Where I live
Let me live
Without this
EMPTY BLISS
SELFISHNESS
If you want
More of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your
Itching ears (chorus)
Hear it
Im screaming it
Your heeding to it now
You tremble at this sound
You sink into my clothes
And this invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick (chorus)
Into your thoughts
With whats written
On my heart
*Chorus*
Im so sick
Infected with
Where I live
Let me live
Without this
EMPTY BLISS
SELFISHNESS
If you want
More of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your
Itching ears (chorus)
Hear it
Im screaming it
Your heeding to it now
You tremble at this sound
You sink into my clothes
And this invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick (chorus)
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Taking Back Sunday - I'll Let You Live
The first degree was a riot
We're making sure
My lessons learned
Im not ashamed
But Im trying
I've come to expect
The standards you have set
Tell me just how
Dangerous
Is second best
You settled for less
And Im sure you'll settle again
*Chorus*
Theres no
Stopping me (this)
Im gutting you out
Does this make you feel safe?
The closer that I look
Is just the further that you get
Already
Stubborn skin thickens
An attempt to understand (chorus)
(2nd chorus)
You got tired
Of waiting
When the guilt subsides
The night begins
And I know its not what you deserve
Came as a gift from a good friend
That disapproves
But understands
That you represent
And actively encourage
All of my worst habbits
They all are
Proof that we're both capable of the most terrible things
Dont test me (chorus, 2nd chorus)
We're making sure
My lessons learned
Im not ashamed
But Im trying
I've come to expect
The standards you have set
Tell me just how
Dangerous
Is second best
You settled for less
And Im sure you'll settle again
*Chorus*
Theres no
Stopping me (this)
Im gutting you out
Does this make you feel safe?
The closer that I look
Is just the further that you get
Already
Stubborn skin thickens
An attempt to understand (chorus)
(2nd chorus)
You got tired
Of waiting
When the guilt subsides
The night begins
And I know its not what you deserve
Came as a gift from a good friend
That disapproves
But understands
That you represent
And actively encourage
All of my worst habbits
They all are
Proof that we're both capable of the most terrible things
Dont test me (chorus, 2nd chorus)
The Fray - How To Save A Life
Step one
You say we need to talk
He walks
You say sit down its just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stair politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
*Chorus*
Where did I go wrong
I lost a friend
Somewhere along into bitterness
And I would have stayed up
With you all night
Had I known, how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cuz after all, you do know best
Try to step past his defense,
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Things you told him all along
And pray to God he hears you (chorus)
As he begins to raise his voice,
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road,
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came (chorus)
You say we need to talk
He walks
You say sit down its just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stair politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
*Chorus*
Where did I go wrong
I lost a friend
Somewhere along into bitterness
And I would have stayed up
With you all night
Had I known, how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cuz after all, you do know best
Try to step past his defense,
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
Things you told him all along
And pray to God he hears you (chorus)
As he begins to raise his voice,
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road,
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came (chorus)
Sia - Breathe Me
Help
I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is theres no one else to be
*Chorus*
Be my friend
Hold me
Wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch
I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah
I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe (chorus)
I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is theres no one else to be
*Chorus*
Be my friend
Hold me
Wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
And needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch
I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah
I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe (chorus)
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Flyleaf - Cassie
The question asked
In order
To save her life
Or take it
The answer no
To avoid death
The answer yes
Would make it
*Chorus*
Do you believe in God?
Written on a bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
And Cassie pulled the trigger
All heads are bowed in silence
To remember her last sentence
She answered him
Knowing what would happen
Her last words still hanging in the air (chorus)
How many
Will die?
I will die
I will say yes (chorus)
In order
To save her life
Or take it
The answer no
To avoid death
The answer yes
Would make it
*Chorus*
Do you believe in God?
Written on a bullet
Say yes to pull the trigger
And Cassie pulled the trigger
All heads are bowed in silence
To remember her last sentence
She answered him
Knowing what would happen
Her last words still hanging in the air (chorus)
How many
Will die?
I will die
I will say yes (chorus)
Paramore - crushcrushcrush
I've got alot to say to you
Yeah I've got alot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here and it makes no sense at all
*Chorus*
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Ya little spies
Crush..
Crush..
Crush..
CRUSH!
CRUSH!
-2,3,4-
Nothing compares to
A quiet evening alone
Just the one two
Of us whos counting on
That never happens
I guess Im dreaming again
Lets be more than
This (now)
If you wanna play it like a game
Well come on, come on, lets play
Cuz I'd rather waste my life pretending
Then have to forget you for one whole minute (chorus)
Rock and Roll (hey)
Baby dont ya know,
That we're all alone now
I need something to sing about
(Gimme something to sing about) (chorus)
Yeah I've got alot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here and it makes no sense at all
*Chorus*
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Ya little spies
Crush..
Crush..
Crush..
CRUSH!
CRUSH!
-2,3,4-
Nothing compares to
A quiet evening alone
Just the one two
Of us whos counting on
That never happens
I guess Im dreaming again
Lets be more than
This (now)
If you wanna play it like a game
Well come on, come on, lets play
Cuz I'd rather waste my life pretending
Then have to forget you for one whole minute (chorus)
Rock and Roll (hey)
Baby dont ya know,
That we're all alone now
I need something to sing about
(Gimme something to sing about) (chorus)
Madina Lake - House Of Cards
Its late at night and the worlds asleep
And Im trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
Im thinking what is wrong with me?
Because the only thing I know
About honesty
Is every lie I've told
That you believed
*Chorus*
Im afraid
To be alone
Im afraid
That one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'd be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
But Im too afraid
To come clean
Cuz my lifes the flame
In a house of cards
Now I cant look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try to disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But I just cant (chorus)
Its such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz Im trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Or is this me? (chorus)
And Im trying not to think
I take some pills cuz my mind bleeds
Im thinking what is wrong with me?
Because the only thing I know
About honesty
Is every lie I've told
That you believed
*Chorus*
Im afraid
To be alone
Im afraid
That one day you'll find out
And you'll be amazed
At the secrets I keep
You'd be amazed
At my mouth full of lies
But Im too afraid
To come clean
Cuz my lifes the flame
In a house of cards
Now I cant look you in your eyes
Because the guilt is killing me
I try to disconnect my heart again
Just so I can breathe
I wanna be myself again
But I just cant (chorus)
Its such a shame what I've become
After years of breaking down
My whole life has come undone
Cuz Im trying to fake it all
And I know that you love someone
But that someone isn't me
Or is this me? (chorus)
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Im A Fake
Its late at night and Im not even alone,
But I cant get you off my mind
The past, so far ago,
Pain and misery burned in my eyes
As it does tonight
But no one knows
And Im holding onto the feeling of you
Because you saw it in my eyes
Before I even knew what to do
I could love you and I hate that its true
I dont want you, not even close
Im a terrible person to let this feeling grow
She's like no other,
True and better than us both
I will stop this, I have to, I must
When will I learn theres no one I can fully trust?
Until then I will keep dreaming and hoping
Until one day the flutter of pain will be soaking
All around me to look before
But I cant get you off my mind
The past, so far ago,
Pain and misery burned in my eyes
As it does tonight
But no one knows
And Im holding onto the feeling of you
Because you saw it in my eyes
Before I even knew what to do
I could love you and I hate that its true
I dont want you, not even close
Im a terrible person to let this feeling grow
She's like no other,
True and better than us both
I will stop this, I have to, I must
When will I learn theres no one I can fully trust?
Until then I will keep dreaming and hoping
Until one day the flutter of pain will be soaking
All around me to look before
Victorias Secret
Do you expect me to believe you when you tell me you love me?
Its so hard to think when your trying to hug me
Is it a cover up for all the things you've done ever?
Does it blow your head off when I say "I guess, whatever"?
I didn't really mean it
You know the things that I've done
It only hurt you
And thats not so much fun
Well Im sorry for all of it
I really, really am
I hope you'll forgive me,
Please give me your hand
A goodnight kiss, thats all I want to give you
Its just so hard when Im not there with you
Its so hard to think when your trying to hug me
Is it a cover up for all the things you've done ever?
Does it blow your head off when I say "I guess, whatever"?
I didn't really mean it
You know the things that I've done
It only hurt you
And thats not so much fun
Well Im sorry for all of it
I really, really am
I hope you'll forgive me,
Please give me your hand
A goodnight kiss, thats all I want to give you
Its just so hard when Im not there with you
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
8 years to start
You gave me that fake smile today
Pretty and skinny,
Perfect in your own way
But honey, why is it that everytime I look at you,
I only see pain locked away?
The great ones never see it in themselves
Critical and in disbelief
Even if they hear good from someone else
Im without you and I feel like I have nowhere left to turn
Im alone in this boat
Without the automatic feeling to yearn
But Im getting better,
And soon I wont be on the recieving end of this mess
That'll be your place to confess
Im not holding onto you anymore
Stand on your own two feet and find the cure
Pretty and skinny,
Perfect in your own way
But honey, why is it that everytime I look at you,
I only see pain locked away?
The great ones never see it in themselves
Critical and in disbelief
Even if they hear good from someone else
Im without you and I feel like I have nowhere left to turn
Im alone in this boat
Without the automatic feeling to yearn
But Im getting better,
And soon I wont be on the recieving end of this mess
That'll be your place to confess
Im not holding onto you anymore
Stand on your own two feet and find the cure
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Alexandria
I need to write this
Because its bleeding inside me
You hurt me so bad
It hurts terribly
I trusted you
When warned not to
I let the fact that I care too much
Get in the way yet again
You dont give a damn about me
You never have
All you needed was someone
To cry on and make sad
Well you've fullfilled your desire
Its done and your glad
You have no respect or feelings
You say you love but you dont know the meaning
And even then
Your words are emptier than your reasons
In the end your all that matters to you
And you cry yourself to sleep
Rather than think things through
Im not perfect,
But neither are you
Step back and look at the things you do
The pain you cause
The rules you break
The lies you smear
The people you give heartache
Above everything
I hate that I still care about you
Crying
Hurting
And watching the things you do
Your heart beats on the inside
But for now it is being abused
And lied to
Most like the things the outside of you
Chooses to do
Because its bleeding inside me
You hurt me so bad
It hurts terribly
I trusted you
When warned not to
I let the fact that I care too much
Get in the way yet again
You dont give a damn about me
You never have
All you needed was someone
To cry on and make sad
Well you've fullfilled your desire
Its done and your glad
You have no respect or feelings
You say you love but you dont know the meaning
And even then
Your words are emptier than your reasons
In the end your all that matters to you
And you cry yourself to sleep
Rather than think things through
Im not perfect,
But neither are you
Step back and look at the things you do
The pain you cause
The rules you break
The lies you smear
The people you give heartache
Above everything
I hate that I still care about you
Crying
Hurting
And watching the things you do
Your heart beats on the inside
But for now it is being abused
And lied to
Most like the things the outside of you
Chooses to do
Skinny chicks get all the pretty boys
Walk past him
His knees get weak
Stair him in the eyes
He's under a spell
Let two months go by
Walk past him
His stomach is sick
Stair him in the eyes
He'll turn his head
This is the chain reaction that happens
Every time you bat those dark brown eyes - yet again
You've put new meaning to the phrase "chew you up and spit you out"
Everyday you find a freshman
Wondering about
Each one more naive than the last
Why do you give him hope,
And then put him in the past?
One day, you'll find a smart one
Who wont want you back
Early on he'll see through you
Like I have
His knees get weak
Stair him in the eyes
He's under a spell
Let two months go by
Walk past him
His stomach is sick
Stair him in the eyes
He'll turn his head
This is the chain reaction that happens
Every time you bat those dark brown eyes - yet again
You've put new meaning to the phrase "chew you up and spit you out"
Everyday you find a freshman
Wondering about
Each one more naive than the last
Why do you give him hope,
And then put him in the past?
One day, you'll find a smart one
Who wont want you back
Early on he'll see through you
Like I have
Lies
How is it that you get away with what you do?
Im so gullable,
Its pathetic to tell the truth
Dont get me wrong - Im a strong spirit
But Im broken when it comes to you
You get what you want
My opinion doesn't matter until you say it does
Im free to taunt
And in every friendship Im in a rush
But honey I think its time to grow a back bone
Living without your lies and excuses is worth being alone
Dont worry I'll find someone new,
And make sure they're nothing like you
Im so gullable,
Its pathetic to tell the truth
Dont get me wrong - Im a strong spirit
But Im broken when it comes to you
You get what you want
My opinion doesn't matter until you say it does
Im free to taunt
And in every friendship Im in a rush
But honey I think its time to grow a back bone
Living without your lies and excuses is worth being alone
Dont worry I'll find someone new,
And make sure they're nothing like you
Cant be put into words
For the first time in your eyes Im restless
Purely excited and tempted
This feeling is unfamiliar and strange
Im sick, shaky, and in pain
This wont last - it never does
At 2:34 in the morning,
I dont see myself getting the sleep I need anytime soon
I cant write for shit and I'll have a fit
Im tired of writing
My feelings are empty
Purely excited and tempted
This feeling is unfamiliar and strange
Im sick, shaky, and in pain
This wont last - it never does
At 2:34 in the morning,
I dont see myself getting the sleep I need anytime soon
I cant write for shit and I'll have a fit
Im tired of writing
My feelings are empty
The Crosspath Of Pain And Sorrow
Its almost a week now
And no response
I guess thats ok
Sinse we've been here more than once
And I cant say that I didn't see it coming
More than ever, I think I should give up
Im tired of running
From stop to stop
I will admit
Im a little selfish
But I feel that sinse I met you
I've only held your hand
Its clear that you dont want my help
And I'll never understand
And no response
I guess thats ok
Sinse we've been here more than once
And I cant say that I didn't see it coming
More than ever, I think I should give up
Im tired of running
From stop to stop
I will admit
Im a little selfish
But I feel that sinse I met you
I've only held your hand
Its clear that you dont want my help
And I'll never understand
Monday, August 27, 2007
Anorexic
Your time has been 168hrs
Your weak, but you think your gaining power
You try to keep it a secret
But everybody knows
Not at first,
But their knowledge will grow
You wont be good enough
Even at death
So get help
And try to beat this
Its not in my experience
So I can only imagine its hard
Im using what I know
To heal your scars
I realized it was coming close to this,
So I stopped before it could finish
Cleaning the wound
But still feeling the illness
Yes this will take time for you and me
So long as we keep trying,
Someday we'll be free
Your weak, but you think your gaining power
You try to keep it a secret
But everybody knows
Not at first,
But their knowledge will grow
You wont be good enough
Even at death
So get help
And try to beat this
Its not in my experience
So I can only imagine its hard
Im using what I know
To heal your scars
I realized it was coming close to this,
So I stopped before it could finish
Cleaning the wound
But still feeling the illness
Yes this will take time for you and me
So long as we keep trying,
Someday we'll be free
Waiting
Im so lonely
Your not here
Darkness ensares the light
Birthing a shadow
That warm smile is nowhere near
Remembering your smell,
And the stories you tell
I look to the phone and wait for your call
Nothing, no nothing at all
Sitting in the blistering silence,
I want your arms around me
The loss of my innocence
And the way she left you bleeding
We wont last, you and I
Breathing in the blood, I could cry
Waiting
I wont get used to this
Counting the lies
Yet needing your kiss
Your not here
Darkness ensares the light
Birthing a shadow
That warm smile is nowhere near
Remembering your smell,
And the stories you tell
I look to the phone and wait for your call
Nothing, no nothing at all
Sitting in the blistering silence,
I want your arms around me
The loss of my innocence
And the way she left you bleeding
We wont last, you and I
Breathing in the blood, I could cry
Waiting
I wont get used to this
Counting the lies
Yet needing your kiss
Someday
For those who've wept
For those who've cried
For those who've slept
Both day and night
It hurts,
And yet you smile at the same time
We walk
We hold our secret thoughts
Deep in our bones
So we dont get caught
We fall,
Barely breaching our demise
For those who lie
For those who bruise
For those who use
Unfaithful eyes
You'll die
Keeping it all inside
We'll break
You cause so much pain
And I want it too
In the end we're only being used
This day
When will we face our mistakes?
For those who've cried
For those who've slept
Both day and night
It hurts,
And yet you smile at the same time
We walk
We hold our secret thoughts
Deep in our bones
So we dont get caught
We fall,
Barely breaching our demise
For those who lie
For those who bruise
For those who use
Unfaithful eyes
You'll die
Keeping it all inside
We'll break
You cause so much pain
And I want it too
In the end we're only being used
This day
When will we face our mistakes?
Fight the reason
Intentions are good in peices
Put them together,
They're only reasons
To fall down this empty heart
I'll never have a fresh start
Because I haven't even begun
To try this battle one
So painful and disgusting
Emotionless and untrusting
I feel like its never-ending
And Im running in circles
I dont even try because I wait for tomorrow
My times running out and Im filling up with fear
This has got to stop
It has to end here
I need you,
Im ready to face this,
Only with your help and strength will I beat it
Forgive me for my past grievance
Put them together,
They're only reasons
To fall down this empty heart
I'll never have a fresh start
Because I haven't even begun
To try this battle one
So painful and disgusting
Emotionless and untrusting
I feel like its never-ending
And Im running in circles
I dont even try because I wait for tomorrow
My times running out and Im filling up with fear
This has got to stop
It has to end here
I need you,
Im ready to face this,
Only with your help and strength will I beat it
Forgive me for my past grievance
Beautiful Disaster
Your an addiction
Your a fantasy
Your the most beautiful disaster thats ever happened to me
Dangerous and offensive,
Around you Im defenseless
Im trying to avoid this,
Because your the beginning of my death sentence
Damn curiousity
Damn lust
Damn the fact that Im the one you cant trust
We believe we're safe in our head,
But really the main event
Is sitting all alone
Wondering where to go
After meeting you,
I do that more than usual
The descision is painful
It'll break the addiction but I cant ensure the fantasy
Because through all this
Your still the most beautiful disaster to ever happen to me
Your a fantasy
Your the most beautiful disaster thats ever happened to me
Dangerous and offensive,
Around you Im defenseless
Im trying to avoid this,
Because your the beginning of my death sentence
Damn curiousity
Damn lust
Damn the fact that Im the one you cant trust
We believe we're safe in our head,
But really the main event
Is sitting all alone
Wondering where to go
After meeting you,
I do that more than usual
The descision is painful
It'll break the addiction but I cant ensure the fantasy
Because through all this
Your still the most beautiful disaster to ever happen to me
Return a sin
Im wide awake
Feeling a bit insane
But this time theres nothing I can do but pray
All you see
Is yourself and your pain
You've been decieved,
But not by me
You say "accept me for who I am"
But you would not return the favor
You dont care about me
That much is obvious
You dont know the truth
Yet you claim to follow it
Your opinionated and open-minded
Yet you dont give it a chance
Even though your under a life-threatening trance
Fine then
Have it your way
Live your life the way you think
Even though it is not safe
Im done trying to help you
Im done letting you make me feel this way
I've realized your only adam pt 2
And you let me hit my face
Feeling a bit insane
But this time theres nothing I can do but pray
All you see
Is yourself and your pain
You've been decieved,
But not by me
You say "accept me for who I am"
But you would not return the favor
You dont care about me
That much is obvious
You dont know the truth
Yet you claim to follow it
Your opinionated and open-minded
Yet you dont give it a chance
Even though your under a life-threatening trance
Fine then
Have it your way
Live your life the way you think
Even though it is not safe
Im done trying to help you
Im done letting you make me feel this way
I've realized your only adam pt 2
And you let me hit my face
Bi a sin
I breathe to try to take it in
Sitting alone again in the dark
You broke the code and now your a sin
And he knows how to trust in a broken heart
His type will always be a work of art
You've given me doubt,
And reason to cry
Waiting for the day I wont be alone
Your so easy to be asked to die
Sweet and sound like the best lullaby
But not worth the blood you've put on my side
Storms mean pain and intensity
Storms mean beauty and grace
If ever I fell,
Would you let me hit my face?
Until then I'll wait
Until then I'll pray
Sitting alone again in the dark
You broke the code and now your a sin
And he knows how to trust in a broken heart
His type will always be a work of art
You've given me doubt,
And reason to cry
Waiting for the day I wont be alone
Your so easy to be asked to die
Sweet and sound like the best lullaby
But not worth the blood you've put on my side
Storms mean pain and intensity
Storms mean beauty and grace
If ever I fell,
Would you let me hit my face?
Until then I'll wait
Until then I'll pray
Truth
You stair and blink your eyes again
I just keep going
"Please can we not do this?"
Thats what you say as you lift your head,
Away from those shoes,
Dangling from your bed
I nod in dissapointment
Is this how its always gunna be?
And I've been questioned,
Through all this drama
To ones I've lied on your behalf
I thought one day it would stop
At least I've learned not to believe your trash
But we have untied some knots
We are not perfect
Even though you pretend to be
And we've got our quirks
So until we're fully there,
Through each other we'll see
I just keep going
"Please can we not do this?"
Thats what you say as you lift your head,
Away from those shoes,
Dangling from your bed
I nod in dissapointment
Is this how its always gunna be?
And I've been questioned,
Through all this drama
To ones I've lied on your behalf
I thought one day it would stop
At least I've learned not to believe your trash
But we have untied some knots
We are not perfect
Even though you pretend to be
And we've got our quirks
So until we're fully there,
Through each other we'll see
Benjamin
Open the curtains
Let the warmth of the sun bring me back to reality
Sweetie your a dream,
Not a fatality
For a second you had me,
For a second you have us all
Lost in butterfly kisses,
I'll touch your fall
But I'll never hold it up to the sky
Neither will on your account I cry
You never let me down,
I never fell apart
Your no masterpeice
Neither a bliss of the stars
Rather a quiet murmer in my heart,
Soon to be forgotten
Let the warmth of the sun bring me back to reality
Sweetie your a dream,
Not a fatality
For a second you had me,
For a second you have us all
Lost in butterfly kisses,
I'll touch your fall
But I'll never hold it up to the sky
Neither will on your account I cry
You never let me down,
I never fell apart
Your no masterpeice
Neither a bliss of the stars
Rather a quiet murmer in my heart,
Soon to be forgotten
I've learned my best writing comes when i hate you
You...
Love me
Hate me
Lie to me
Betray me
Filthy
Desperate
Ugly
Elegant
Bleed through your eyes
You dont know how to cry
Emotionless
Selfish
No pity
Just anguish
Open my heart
Lock the door
Im left without
With the time to shout
All about
The pain you've caused,
Without a cause
Let this go
Sooner or later you'll show
Who you really are
And they'll all know
Love me
Hate me
Lie to me
Betray me
Filthy
Desperate
Ugly
Elegant
Bleed through your eyes
You dont know how to cry
Emotionless
Selfish
No pity
Just anguish
Open my heart
Lock the door
Im left without
With the time to shout
All about
The pain you've caused,
Without a cause
Let this go
Sooner or later you'll show
Who you really are
And they'll all know
Eyes Wide Shut
Listen to the noises and cry
I dont have his favor, Im so scared to die
I know what Im doing, Im not gunna lie
I've been careless with these hands
Ignoring the fact that one day they will bleed
Help is in my demand
Why wont you help me?
Im falling
Im breaking my own legs and crawling to the outside
Im falling down
Im only waiting for you to open up my eyes
This fear, and confusion
Its consuming
Its always tomorrow to try
Im running in circles
With beaded glass eyes
I've put myself in this hole
Watch me loose my mind
Sick and alone, wanting someone to hold
Im only a joke
But as for this, no one is to know
When Im drowning in my own tears,
You've got a smirk
Dear God,
When will I learn?
I must pick myself up before its too late
Should I not, I'll only fear my fate
I dont have his favor, Im so scared to die
I know what Im doing, Im not gunna lie
I've been careless with these hands
Ignoring the fact that one day they will bleed
Help is in my demand
Why wont you help me?
Im falling
Im breaking my own legs and crawling to the outside
Im falling down
Im only waiting for you to open up my eyes
This fear, and confusion
Its consuming
Its always tomorrow to try
Im running in circles
With beaded glass eyes
I've put myself in this hole
Watch me loose my mind
Sick and alone, wanting someone to hold
Im only a joke
But as for this, no one is to know
When Im drowning in my own tears,
You've got a smirk
Dear God,
When will I learn?
I must pick myself up before its too late
Should I not, I'll only fear my fate
Cry Innocence
All I want is you
All I need is you
I'll never move on
Cuz your all I can do
Stop
Rewind
Replay
These words run through your head
Over and over again
You think this is what I believe of you
Funny thing is, its simply not true
Honey, you dont deserve an explanation
Sweetie, I owe you nothing
When you look at me, there is temptation
As I look at you, I see something
Anger,
Longing,
Jealousy,
Joy
Just by looking at me this is what you get
But, My dear, I am not your toy
And to me, you are not a threat
All I need is you
I'll never move on
Cuz your all I can do
Stop
Rewind
Replay
These words run through your head
Over and over again
You think this is what I believe of you
Funny thing is, its simply not true
Honey, you dont deserve an explanation
Sweetie, I owe you nothing
When you look at me, there is temptation
As I look at you, I see something
Anger,
Longing,
Jealousy,
Joy
Just by looking at me this is what you get
But, My dear, I am not your toy
And to me, you are not a threat
Random Poet
Im not interested in the clothes you wear
You dont see that this heart cares
They dont know that Im pretending
But your life is worth defending
I came to you as a crush, as a fool
Your breaking this heart, your ignorance is the tool
Believe it when you see my empty eyes
Because only hours ago, they did such a thing as cry
Tears fall like blood from a wound
My soft pink cheeks they consume
Warmth drifts away
The cold leaves you in a haze
I dont mean to be condescending
I only fear that your life is ending
Please tell me that you see me here
End it and come back my dear
Look at me from the side
And watch me cry
Im not interested in the length of your hair
You stripped my strength and left me bare
You dont see that this heart cares
They dont know that Im pretending
But your life is worth defending
I came to you as a crush, as a fool
Your breaking this heart, your ignorance is the tool
Believe it when you see my empty eyes
Because only hours ago, they did such a thing as cry
Tears fall like blood from a wound
My soft pink cheeks they consume
Warmth drifts away
The cold leaves you in a haze
I dont mean to be condescending
I only fear that your life is ending
Please tell me that you see me here
End it and come back my dear
Look at me from the side
And watch me cry
Im not interested in the length of your hair
You stripped my strength and left me bare
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