Im A Fake

Its late at night and Im not even alone,
But I cant get you off my mind
The past, so far ago,
Pain and misery burned in my eyes
As it does tonight
But no one knows
And Im holding onto the feeling of you
Because you saw it in my eyes
Before I even knew what to do
I could love you and I hate that its true
I dont want you, not even close
Im a terrible person to let this feeling grow
She's like no other,
True and better than us both
I will stop this, I have to, I must
When will I learn theres no one I can fully trust?
Until then I will keep dreaming and hoping
Until one day the flutter of pain will be soaking
All around me to look before