You Were Never My Boyfriend

You consume my mind
Every day and night
I didn't fall in love with you,
I was something you discontinued
Whatever we had, it was empty
To be put simply
So why do I hurt so easily?
You never had a loving way of treating me
A romantic fairy tale I never believed
I knew we could never be
We had no "chemistry"
But what I cant seem to understand,
Is something I never, ever have
How were you able to just leave it?
No closure
No reason
Im left wondering
Looking for any kind of comforting
And your left fine
You schoolmates,
Im sure theyre divine
They filled my spot
They passed the test
Pretty eyes,
And what you get off to after midnight
I guess my feelings were just added stress
But haven't you heard?
Im a hot mess
I guess I failed cuz I couldn't touch you
And even though you fantasized about it,
I never would've fucked you
We were a lie,
Thats the truth
Now that its on paper,
Im over you